You asked me how I felt , I told the truth now we don’t talk.
You lounge around me huffing and puffing.
mad out loud upset just so I can notice and feel guilty about what I thought.
Huh? Fuck Me right !?
Then it’s the “I just think it’s crazy like”
If you want to leave go !
Go on rip the band aid so I can hurt in peace
and please find the happiness you lacked with me
because when it comes to grief I’ll reprieve.
I’ll be okay Cuz I got shit to do .
The vision didn’t stop just unfortunately it no longer consists of you. And Maybe it’s all temporary emotions but I feel them too, because I’ve spent so much time negating my happiness for yours that when I get a little fruit of my own it’s already bruised.
I’m not perfect.
When I get mad no matter what you say I’m like cool
I say communication is key but I don’t wanna talk because I shut down
Not out of anger. it’s just your words are like bullets
Piercing through my armor and instead of extending my hands in peace my pride won’t let go of my crown.
Emotionally I can be selfish and you can be manipulative and unreasonable
And we can be plain mean but I love you,
so that toxic Shit doesn’t mean anything to me
Author: copaceticaesthetix
i’m (not) okay
On the surface, I look fine
But really I’m out my mind
Like I’m really buggin’
You can’t love this one out of me
Tryna fix me like
Brewing potions with the witches
This is alchemy
You’re so unaffable
It’s laughable
I’m baffled though because
This one won’t wash away
Not even with holy water
This one won’t wash away
I’m my father’s daughter
I’m a bother
It’s not alright
I’m not okay
I’m fine
No Fear
Fear is a chain, of pain, bolted and double locked
I don’t want that.
Sorrow Lives
She drank to drown her pain
But the sorrow learned to swim
She longed for a life of love and laughter
But couldn’t shake the dread within
She played the part and walked the talk
As part of her disguise
She smiled and waved and hugged and played
While plotting her own demise
She pops her pills to ease her feels
And last at least another day
She meditates and overmedicates
Because she’s lost her way
I say she’s lost but is it true ?
If she was meant to wander
Could it be, perhaps that she
And the true her have torn asunder ?
If I lived my truth would it be proof
That this life is worthwhile ?
The thought moves on, the clouds move in
Inhale the smoke and smile
I Knew
I know you’re ready but you shouldn’t have to be
You should frolicking, hollerin, with the other kids, happily
I hate that you’ve experienced some tragedy
And I pray that you don’t grow up and be mad me
I always did the best that I could’ve
But see, I too grew up sooner than I should’ve
So I wasn’t sure what I wouldn’t and what I would’ve
If I wasn’t raised on survival but on good love
I never wanted you to look out and be jaded
I think you’ll understand soon why I’m always faded
But focus on the good things we’ve created
In a life of wtf I’m happy we’re related.
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