You Kinda Suck

I was drowning 

I was screaming 

I was fighting for my life 

While you were frowning 

You were shouting 

You were laughing at my strife 

In the beginning 

I was winning 

You were right there by my side 

Things are changing 

Rearranging 

Now you want to run and hide 

I was crying 

I was dying 

I had gave all I could give 

And you were taking 

You were faking 

Not really caring if I lived 

Now I’m better 

Life is better 

You want back into my life 

But your hands are redder 

Than when I felt you 

Put my back around the knife 

Raft

I’d be swinging from the rafters if I held onto your every word

I’d be clawing at you bastards if I believed I was the only girl

I’d be laughing, screaming, crying if I could  just ever feel

I’d be back to lines, misshapen minds if I didn’t know the drill

Sailing

I can’t

Turn my brain off

Manually

It’s like I

Need like a ???

Frontal lobotomy annually

May I

Speak

Candidly ?

It’s like a

Bandage, sleep

For whatever I should actually

Be handling

A slight reprieve

Artificially

Involuntary

Unofficially

A piece of candy

And a wish shall be

The end of me